Horizon Hell
Yesterday I had an amazing day!! Peppermint Pudding, our class elf, arrived complete with decorating the room, bringing donuts, and a letter from Santa. The twinkle in the eyes of my students proved that magic does exist.
I taught art club where we made a total MESS in my room to top of an already amazing day. Then rushed off to tutor. It was a Monday so that meant I had my 1st, 3rd, and 7th graders to work with. I finished with my 1st and 3rd graders. While wrapping up I saw an odd email, ignored it and then got a text from my room mom, Monica, wanting to know if I had heard the news. At a red light, I read the letter. I saw, "ALA closing," "December 31," "part-time ST," "unemployment." Instantly I began sobbing and then puking. Mind you I am in my car on the way to tutor another child. Luckily I had an empty Starbucks cup in my car to puke in and a sweater to blow my nose on. Monica called me backed and heard the sobs on the other line. She instantly told me to come over. I made a U-turn, texted the other family to cancel, and rushed to Monica's while calling my Momma. My Momma talked me until I finally calmed down...that's what moms are for :)
I walked into Monica's where Gretchen, another mom, was also there for a play date. My eyes are swollen and I had clearly been crying my eyes out. Two of my students came around the corner to greet me all excited. When they saw me, the knew something was wrong and decided to go back to play. Not the way I want my students to see me. Thanks to Monica, I had a glass of wine...ok a few...and supper. I swear if it wasn't for this woman I'd starve these days! With Monica and Gretchen being so calm, I too calmed down. Still I came home in tears and sobbed while typing the email to notify second grade parents.
This morning I was greeted with bright, cheerful second grade faces rushing in to search for Peppermint Pudding and long, sad parent faces with looks of sympathy and devastation. For now I do not want my students to know what is going on. I will continue with the magic of Peppermint Pudding, our book publishing coming up, and the high rigor and relevance in my lessons. If I give up now, I fail myself, my parents, and most importantly my students.
Your prayers are needed right now for these families. If it was not for the families, I'd be a mess. They are constantly supporting me, picking me up when down, and making sure I am fed and well caffeinated! I am the one who is truly blessed.